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Selling a Sigma EF 500 flash unit(Nikon mount) @ SG$200.

around 2yrs old. still in good working condition. comes with original box.

further details available upon request.

urgently needs it sold. price negotiable.

tell your friends.

cheers.

Things are certainly getting better.. at least emotionally.
always brings me a smile whenever i think about her. i'm glad that she still loves me.. hell i'm glad that I still love her.

i realized that regardless of whatever has happened, be it the good times, bad times, etc, i was happy to be with her, to love her, and be loved by her. it just feels right, regardless of what happened. after all that drama i experienced since march this year, i realized that she's the one.

lazy to meet and open up to someone new? don't think so. lazy to tell them about myself all over again? unlikely. as of now, even though we're with each other for 2yrs+(inclusive of the time now), i realize that most guys(and a certain butch) certainly have no inkling of what kind of person she is.

i don't profess to know everything about her, and even though i know a bit more than most, learning about her is an ongoing process, because i still learn something new about her now and then. there are times when she'll change her tastes and the like for certain things, so it's not exactly a stagnant process.

but here's the interesting point. why would i go to great lengths for her, and not anyone else? i guess that's a pretty simple thing to answer. it's because i love her. sure, i was probably impatient about the whole hoo-haa back then, but i realized i should have just been more patient, and let her figure out where her true feelings lie.

during my darkest moments, i had tried to read up about relationships and emotions and, basically male-female interactions. one such method, is to love freely, without expecting anything in return. to not just love one, but all women, without prejudice or biasness. and soon the one will come by.

as much as i tried my best to understand that philosophy, i just can't. love every single women? i dunno, but it just doesn't sit well with me. doesn't sound or feel right. sure most of the other relationship tips were helpful and useful, but that core philosophy about loving everyone... nah, i'll pass.

why spend all that energy on everyone, when one could just conserve it for the one and only? which is what i'm trying to do now.

after taking numerous steps back, and looking at the big picture, it was not her fault, nor was it mine, that things went wrong. it was both our fault. forever at each other's necks, and i never realized how badly she needed my support and companionship. while i was out having fun, thinking everything's alright.. of coz the methods she used to gain what she couldn't from me wasn't amoral, but i was doing a pretty bad job as being her bf if she had to resort to gain support and companionship from others. we both had a part to play in that.

now? the fact that we love each other, is now allowing us to rekindle what was lost and work towards a better relationship, and a better future. no more fighting. more talking and discussing and resolving issues. it takes 2 to clap, and back then, we've been missing each other's palms for sure.

i can't iterate how much i love her or what i'm willing to do for her.

call me a fool for saying this, but i'm confident that there will not be any further critical issues, and that this will be the last stop, and phase in life before moving on to the next phase, marriage.

now? well i just have to keep working then.

I love you Siti Mariam. there can be no other..


ps: i still hate my job, but the fact that i have someone to 'come home to' is making my life more bearable. and although i screwed the air steward interview, i'm trying again this month. unless someone can offer me a SG$3.5k job that fully utilizes my talents(what talents?) and capabilities.

UPDATE: i forgot to mention that fibre also helps your body absorb Minerals more than it usually can, another plus point.

well, here's my guide on how to lose weight, lol. i wouldn't actually recommend it, but hell it sure does beat having to starve in a crash diet. nothing beats old skool exercising, but if you're like me, where you're constantly on your ass doing office work, then allow me to show u a few shortcuts on how to lose some weight, naturally, by exploiting certain food/drinks.

- try your best to eat hi-fibre food. doesn't have to conform to just fruits and vegetables. personally i've taken a liking to Jacob's Low Salt Hi-Fibre biscuits. Reason: fibre helps block a certain chemical(which i've forgotten the name) produced by the body, that slows down one's metabolism. So the more fibre you take in, the more it blocks that chemical, the faster your metabolism, which means you can be doing almost nothing, yet your fats will still burn.(of coz, if you actually exercise, this means your metabolism will be faster than it already is)

- coffee. studies have shown that moderate use of caffeine has a small effect in reducing weight. it has other benefits, such as temporarily warding off drowiness and keeping one alert. but do take note not to over do this as excessive intake of caffeine may lead to other complications as well, which ranges from addiction, and as well as liver poisoning. so a cup a day every morning shouldn't hurt.

- we've been taught to have 3 meals a day. but to not overwork your body, split the equivalent amount of food from 3 meals, into 6. i can't really remember the explaination for this, but if you check up on food nutrition, they would say the same to you, with a more valid explaination of coz.



now i will share with you on how i have my food intake. Once i lost 12kg in a month, based on the following strategy

- have a normal breakfast, nothing too unhealthy or oily

- for the rest of the day, i would eat around 7-8 pieces of Jacob's Low Salt Hi-Fibre biscuits, spread out around 1 biscuit an hr, just to keep myself from going hungry(pls adjust accordingly if you have a bigger body, but just enough from going hungry), skipping lunch altogether. Once you do this, the body will burn your fats, instead of burning the food you've would have gorged yourself in, on top of the increased metabolism provided by the hi-fibre. make sure to take in the biscuits before you start to feel hungry, otherwise your body would start to run in Power-saving mode and start burning muscles as well, which is not what we want. also by doing this, it will shrink your stomach, hence eventually you will need lesser food to make you full, to help prevent excessive eating and large appetites.

- dinner-wise, have a normal proper dinner, once again nothing too unhealthy. occasional intake of fast food is acceptable, ask for more lettuce with your burger. do not over-indulge, unless its full of fruits or vege.

- drinks wise, apart from coffee, do try taking in fresh fruit juices.



all this was due to the fact i was overeating and overindulging in so many unhealthy food that my weight jumped to 85kg during NS. and i wasn't even aware of all this, until i saw photos of myself.


now i do almost the same thing, except i have mixed fruits for lunch, as well as kendo to burn fats and tone my body up. Eating fruits does have other benefits as well. For guys, well, if your girl spits instead of swallows, it's good to take note that fruits, in general, contain chemicals that neutralizes the acidity in your semen, which ultimately eliminates the saltiness and that particular smell. Take in even more and it will sweeten your semen, making it a joy for swallowers. might help in getting spitters to finally swallow. the most potent fruit that helps in this particular case would be pineapples. the smell/taste is ultimately what you eat/drink. for eg, excessive chocolates, although it contains endorphins and makes ppl horny in general, will make your semen taste bitter. not from personal experience i assure you, but based on scientific studies. like how eating celery helps with pheromones, and vanilla helps with lasting longer in bed i think(or i probably mixed it up with something else, but the benefits are still sexual related). of coz the fruits and sweetening of the semen... heh heh, i can pretty much stand by and vouch for that, lol, based on feedback of coz.. oh and it's particularly the same for ladies as well. how your juices taste, is dependent on your regular consumptions, so fruits will work for you as well.


well i hope this entry was helpful and informative. do let me know, or ask if you have any queries in regards to food. or any other stuff that i've brought up lol. =x

cheers ^^

i learnt that.. whatever we WANT.. doesn't necessarily mean that, that is what we need.

i learnt it the hard way. maybe god gave me this scenario to show and teach me that very lesson. unfortunately i had to break a girl's heart in order to learn it. and i'm very sorry that of all girls, it had to be you.

i'm glad that we're still friends though. that's something i really appreciate and am happy about.

in the 2mths+ that we went out, you've managed to change me into a better person, in many aspects. i thank you for everything you've done for me. truly. sincerely.

i will repay you in kind one day, i promise ^^.

now concentrate on your studies, do your best to get your honours, and be the best that you can be, because i know you can.

and i hope, the right person, who is deserving of such care and attention from you, will one day, ride in and sweep you off your feet, and gallop off with you, into the sunset...


Cheers

before i start wearing my kendo bogu..(armour)

and then the free sparring can begin, and i go 1 step closer to winning tourneys and becoming a national player...

in other news, i am gonna try my hand at applying to be an air steward.. a walk-in interview towards end of August.. wish me luck folks...